We are sorry you are going through a tough time, but want you to know there is real hope. It takes moral courage to reach out and ask for help. The best advice we can give you is to talk to a Chaplain, counselor, or pastor in your area. As much as we enjoy sharing with individuals, work and family commitments don’t allow much time to do that outside of our military unit or the occasional group engagement where we can encourage many people at once.
If you’re interested in counseling, there are many options, both military and non-military. Some of our own best counseling experiences came from those with no military experience. Conduct a local search if that interests you. If you feel more comfortable speaking with those with a military background, we highly recommend contacting https://thewarriorsjourney.org/. They are a great resource for counseling and Christian discipleship for military personnel.
Again, it's admirable that you are looking for help. Know that you are not alone, and that there is hope. A Bible passage we often lean on is found in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10, “But He (God) said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” Even on a bad day, the Apostle Paul received comfort in the power and resurrection of Jesus Christ! Our prayer is that you do the same.
God bless you,